Try hard to tell yourself that it's not that way. Try hard to prove that everything is not that way. To the extent that you get pissed off too easily. No, it's not disappointment. It's just hatred towards that certain thing and yourself.
You ask yourself why you deserve that and alas, you do deserve that. But starts to come up with excuses like "no choice..." and you very well know that there's no such thing as "no choice" because you made that choice to have no choice. Get what i mean?
Then you ask yourself why you are in the predicament and is it because you are pure unlucky. And you want to start trying. Start building up that will to ___. And found that you've got no more energy or you choose to give up.
You start asking yourself why can't you have this set of character because afterall it makes things easier. But no matter what, you know you can't change. You lay down everynight to ponder about the same thing. The same thing. But no solution.
I remember my sis asking me is it because i am stressed up easily? No, i can't even feel stress. But hopefully that is the course for whatever shit that condition is called. That freaking docter gave a term that i can't even remember and yes that doctor sucks. To think he is called steve. =.= The only steve i like is steve irwin! =0) Lala.
Okay. Nice that i managed to calm myself after mere 5 minutes of typing. =0) Nice try. And good improvement. I need to learn time management too. Time to head back to ebook. And there's no mid autumn fest feel. Just boxes of mooncakes. *pukes*
Oh yes. To the holder of the two free tix and another holder of one free tix, please buzz me! When you all wanna head down? Not that i am a cheapo! But the weather is freaking warm. =x
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